And I’ve done some form of exercise 12/15 days.
For me, this is quite an accomplishment. Seriously.
I realized this morning, as I was getting dressed, that I feel good. Like, REALLY good. And it’s nice to look in the mirror and not hate your body. Because honestly, there is nothing healthy about hate. I used to be obsessed with fixing my body. OMG. My body is not broken! I’m not broken!
There is nothing healthy about obsession, either.
Anyway, back to my realization.
In the not-so-distant past, I worked out to see exterior results. I NEEDED to hear people tell me I looked good. I needed the compliments and to be noticed for all my hard work. But this time, it’s different. I’m finding a beautiful sense of satisfaction on the inside. Knowing I’m working hard and feeling great is all the reward I need right now. I’m doing this for me. I like the compliments, but I don’t NEED them.
There is so much freedom in knowing I’m doing this for myself.
And that’s why, this journey is going to be different from my journeys in the past. I am the only motivation I need.
But you can still tell me I look good. 😉