I haven’t been here in a while.

Truth be told, I haven’t even felt like writing much. And when I did feel like writing, it was sad– albeit brilliant ;D –poetry.

Life really is hard sometimes. I’m not going to go into detail about what my family and I have been dealing with for the last year and a half or so, just know it’s been trying. And frustrating. And heartbreaking.

It’s also been heartwarming. And strength building. And life changing.

Sometimes bad shit can turn into a positive. Sure, it takes a lot of fucking work, but it can happen.

And it has.

So our challenges are nowhere near over, but we are slowly but surely becoming better equipped to handle them.

I say all that to say…I’m back! Have you missed me?

I’m toying with the idea of writing again. My imagination is lit and I feel stories wanting to burst free. On the weird side, I’m kinda wanting to write my stories in a different way. Songs. Movies. Plays. And yes, still books. I have to figure out how to write in different formats, but hell, I hadn’t written a book until I wrote a book, so I suppose I could apply the same logic to songs, movies, plays…right?

The boys are great….thanks for wondering. Rader finished his Sophomore year at Hendrix with As and Bs. Ian is still living on his own and might possibly buy a house soon!

Without going into too much detail, the Manpanion and I are good. We had a pretty rough patch due to a sick parent and that has altered the current format of our relationship, but we are still together and happy. I wouldn’t wish this circumstance on anyone and trust me when I tell you, it can make or break a couple. Thankfully we seem to be on the “make” side of that equation.

Fitness has been up and down. I was down 45 lbs…but I’m currently up again. Not 45 up…but probably about 20 up. I love Pilates but haven’t been in a while. I’m working on getting back to that.

I’ve hired a good friend of mine from high school (yes, I do have a couple of those) and she has been nothing less than a godsend to me. Yay for help!

Ok. That’s my brief round up. It’s been hard for me, being without you–hopefully you’ve missed me, too.

Love and all that shit.

Melf