I need a happy.

Have you just ever had one of those days where you want to cry but can’t and just really need a happy?

That’s today for me.

I’ve heard from both lads this week. Grant called me from Horn Lake, MS today and Simon (in Chicago) yesterday. Both seem to be doing well and I’m glad to hear it. Originally, Fishdog and I were going to have dinner with Grant and the Horn Lake gang tomorrow, but plans have changed. They asked if we could go up there for lunch, but because this is the week from hell at work, we just can’t take the time off. They leave for KC first thing Saturday morning then to Nebraska. Grant will be there for 3 months.

Si has extended his visit in the states until the 20th so chances are good that I’ll see him one more time before he leaves.

I guess because today has been so busy at work and so emotional personally, I’m just really sad that the summer is over. Simon will be going home in a few weeks and Grant will be heading to the bitter winters of Nebraska for a few months. I’m not even their real mom, but it doesn’t make me any less sad that they are going to be leaving. And my boys, well they go back to school next week. Where did the time go?

It’s just weird.

Part of my sadness is probably coming off the huge high of the conference. It is hard to readjust, I think. Last week I was on the go constantly. Lots of gabbing and visiting and networking and playing. Giggling and gossiping and lots oflate nights in the room with wine.

I spent the entire day today thinking it was Wednesday. We had open house for both kids tonight and I didn’t even realize it until 5:10 pm. Because in my mind it was Wednesday.

Okay, I’ve rambled on enough. My whole purpose of this little pity party is to say I have a huge need for a happy. Please, somebody…give me a happy.