you know what’s weird?

Random weird tidbits that make up Mel…

  • I don’t like opening cans of biscuits because it kinda scares me when they POP!
  • Velour is physically painful for me to touch.
  • Coffee tastes better in my favorite coffee mug.
  • The smell of leather turns me on. I’ll never be able to join PETA.
  • Tomato soup is my fave but I don’t like uncooked tomatoes at all.
  • I love the flavor of pears but can’t eat them because of their grainy texture.
  • I used to only get pedicures before special occasions, but this year, I started an every other week tradition through Spring and Summer. I miss it.
  • My fingernails always tear when they get a little long. I’ve never had long nails (that weren’t fake)
  • I drive a 5-speed and keep thinking my next car will be automatic. Except I want a Jeep. And seriously, who wants to drive an automatic Jeep?
  • My 15 year old doesn’t want to learn to drive. WTF is up with that?

So are you weird?

walking to happy

I turned 40 in March. It’s a big mile-stone birthday for many people and your reaction to such an event really depends on who you are on the inside.

I never dreaded turning 40. I actually feel better today than I did 10 years ago. (look better, too, but that’s beside the point.)

A few years ago I started on my path of self-rediscovery. I needed to find myself again, because somehow, I’d lost a bit of the real me. I got fat, I was depressed, and mostly I was a shell of the person I used to be.

So slowly I started to shed the weight. It’s really easy to hide behind the fat. The more I exercised, the better I felt. And now, if I don’t walk at least 4 days a week for over an hour, I start to feel sad. It’s one of my favorite times of the day. Lots of thinking, contemplating, daydreaming, and sometimes a little crying will take place on my walks. I don’t hide anymore. And I don’t feel like I need to.

And frankly, I’m happy again.

What’s the point of all this? I guess maybe that the only thing we can be in control of is our own happiness. I took charge of my emotional well being. I stopped relying on others to make me happy. It’s an amazingly freeing feeling. I’m not saying that others can’t enhance your happiness but to give them full control over your emotions tends to give them control over you. Bit-by-bit you lose yourself.

Have you tried it? Have you taken control of your own happiness or are you still relying on others to do your job for you? It surprises me that my daily walks are the one thing that bring me peace. I bet there is something out there that will do the same for you.

better put on your shades; mel is sparkling again…

Bee Girl be gone. Today, I’m the Queen Bee. I even wore heels to work. That’s right. HEELS. And my perfectly pedicured toes are rockin’ the silver shoes.

The sun has come out (though rumor has it we’re gonna get more rain tomorrow. Boo. Hiss.) I’ve been walking again, so I feel great again. Funny how exercise really can make such a huge difference in attitude.

Are you wearing your shades? Cuz my sparkle is turned up to blinding.

How is everyone? Are you sparkling or fizzling? Tell the Queen Bee what’s up–maybe she can help. If not, I’m sure she can entertain you with meth ho/school boy dirty dancing stories…

a jumble-aya

Monday is my day at Fictionistas. I posted some random tidbits about myself.

This weekend was a good one…mainly b/c the Hogs put the smackdown on the Auburn Tigers! YAY! 2 tough wins in a row and our first conference win against a ranked team!

I did some cleaning, laundry, and…I did some PLOTTING! Yes! I worked with my pal Maria and came up with a decent little story idea. Can’t talk about it right now, but I’m working on the synopsis/proposal.

It felt good to work on something new again.

I discovered that my pal Gwen Hayes got into a Twitter Fight with Scott Baio over the weekend. I’m sad to find out that Chachi is actually a tool. He crushed my childhood crush. Guess it’s a good thing I liked Leif Garret better. (though truthfully, Chachi did age better than Leif…however, I’m over both of them now. LOL)

It’s still rainy and overcast and making me feel like I live in the Pacific Northwest instead of Little Rock, AR. My mood is very much influenced by the weather, so I’m ready for some clear, crisp fall days. I’m tired of feeling tired.

I caught up on some dvr’d shows. I’m really digging Cougar Town and Modern Family. Mad Men is a little disappointing this season, but I’m sticking with it. Drop Dead Diva is my new favorite off-season show (finale was last night) and I’m kinda back into Grey’s Anatomy now that they’ve killed off George. (I actually liked George, but I never could understand how that puppy got so much tail in the show. Really seemed out of character for his character.) I love The Mentalist. Hell’s Kitchen is the best of the worst this season–seriously, I’m not sure how any of the top 3 will manage being a head chef (that said, I really do love Dave). And I thought they kicked off the wrong person in Project Runway last week.

I heart the DVR. Best creation ever.

Anything going on with you guys? Any TV you’re loving/hating/leaving in the dust?

My life according to Staind

this is a facebook meme that seemed kinda fun. So I played.

THE RULES: Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 15 people you like and include me. You can’t use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It’s a lot harder than you think! Repost as “my life according to (band name)”

Pick your Artist:
Staind

Are you a male or female:
Me

Describe yourself:
Devil

How do you feel:
Lost Along the Way

Describe where you currently live:
Home

If you could go anywhere, where would you go:
Outside

Your favorite form of transportation:
Falling

Your best friend is:
Right Here

You and your best friends are:
Schizophrenic Conversations

What’s the weather like:
Raining Again

Favorite time of day:
Tonight

If your life were a TV show, what would it be called:
All I Want

What is life to you:
Everything Changes

Your fear:
Suffocate

What is the best advice you have to give:
Believe

Thought for the Day:
Nothing Left to Say

How you would like to die:
The Way I Am

Your soul’s present condition:
Raw

Your motto:
Fill Me Up

Saturday Special

I don’t usually post on Saturdays, but I thought I’d make today extra special. Aren’t you glad?

Random things that make me happy:

1. Good dreams. Last night I had a dream I took a boat trip to the Florida Keys with a friend. I don’t remember a lot of details, other than there were fireworks, margaritas and lots of dancing. I woke up smiling.

2. Guinness. There is nothing like licking the foam of a Guinness off your lips. Or my lips. Whatever.

3. Throwing darts. I’m not very good, but I do it with flair!

4. Music. I have a favorite playlist that I add to here and there. Yesterday I added two songs to it, Chris Young’s Gettin’ You Home and Kim Taylor’s Baby I Need You. (both available on iTunes) Both are great songs. Am considering adding a Guns-n-Roses song today. Oh, and Poker Face by Lady GaGa. I adore that song. Yes, I’m all over the board with my music.

5. Friends. Seriously, I wouldn’t survive without my friends. And I’m very lucky to have both male and female friends who get me and love me for who I am. How sad would it be to not have anyone to lean on?

6. Singing and Dancing. See darts above. I may not be very good but I sure have a good time.

7. Sunrises. If I’m up that early, a beautiful sunrise always makes me happy. I woke at 5:09 this morning and sat outside for a while watching the sun break through the darkness. It was lovely.

8. My kids. Have you seen them? They’re the cutest things ever. How could they not make me happy.

What makes you happy?

things to ponder

Why is it that I can wake up at 6 a.m. with no problems and feel well rested on a Sunday, but come a work day, I feel like I’ve been trampled by an elephant?

Why does my dog bark at the mailman when he’s a block away on a different street? Also, why does my dog have a problem with the neighbors parking in their own driveway?

Why don’t houses come with a ‘self-cleaning’ option?

Why can’t I go to a movie without buying popcorn? It’s ridiculously expensive and stupid to purchase it, yet it tastes so good I can’t resist!

Why did my daddy nickname me Lissa Jane when I was growing up when my middle name is Renee?

Why does the word ‘fart’ make Rader laugh?

How is it I can find 30 4-leaf clovers in fifteen minutes, but I can’t pick a winning lottery number? What the hell kinda crack-job luck is that?

How excited am I that in 3 weeks (exactly 21 days from today) you’ll be able to buy my debut novel BITE ME! off the shelves?

being succint

Yeah, I don’t do one word answers, but I thought this would be fun to try since I’m leaving for a couple of days.

Have pre-blogged for tomorrow. Don’t worry. I’m not totally abandoning you.

One Word Answers

Where is your cell phone? lap

Your hair? flat

Your father? Cotton

Your favorite thing? laughing

Your dream last night? strange

Your favorite drink? served

Your dream/goal? happiness

What room are you in? front

Your hobby? daydreaming

Where do you want to be in 6 years? Florida

Where were you last night? home

Something that you aren’t? boring

Muffins? sure

Wish list item? secret

Last thing you did? slept

What are you wearing? jammies

TV? Tivo

Your pets? spoiled

Friends? everything

Your life? complicated

Your mood? happy

Missing someone? always

Drinking? later

Car? old

Something you’re not wearing? jewelry

Your favorite store? Liquor

Your favorite color? Pink

When is the last time you cried? yesterday

Favorite place? beach

Favorite place to eat? beach

finish the sentences

I stole this from @jennchristman because my brain is fried. See #7.

1. My ex is…from long time ago way back when.

2. I should learn to…sail.

3. I love…music.

4. People say that I am…funny.

5. I don’t understand…war.

6. When I wake up in the morning…I make coffee.

7. I lost…my revisions. No I don’t wanna talk about it.

8. Life is…unpredictable. See above.

9. My past taught me…that life is unpredictable.

10. I get annoyed when…I have to wait.

11. Parties…make me happy.

12. I wish…I lived at the beach.

13. My childhood pets…were named Checkers, Shingles, Amber, Big Red, Moose, Charlie, Sadie and Spike.

14. Tomorrow is….Wednesday.

15. I have a low tolerance for…apathy.

16. If I had a million dollars…I’d move to the beach.

17. I’m terrified of…becoming jaded.

18. I’ve come to realize…I love lottery math, but I may have to change my lottery numbers. They don’t seem to be hitting…

20. I am listening to…a playlist I put together.

21. I talk…about everything.

22. My good friends…center me.

23. I hate…not having it all.

24. My cell phone is…tied to my soul. Don’t judge me.

25. Before I go to bed…I chat with friends and watch the Daily Show.

26. The person most likely to re-post this is… who cares?

27. The person least likely to re-post this is…again, who cares?

28. My favorite pictures…make me smile.

29. I sing…very badly but all the time.

30. If I were a crayon…hot pink.

Random Mel-O-Jumble

This morning, I was struggling for a blog topic. I’m not sure if it was my restless sleep last night or my foggy head this morning, but I just couldn’t come up with anything.But then I drove Rader to school and a few things popped into my head.

So here goes. This isn’t a meme. It’s just a Me.

Things you probably didn’t know about Mel.

  1. If I have cash, I tend to give money to the homeless guys begging at stoplights. This usually happens about once a month (I rarely carry cash). I truly believe they need that $5 more than I do and if they’re scam artists, good for them—I’d rather not know. It takes courage to stand there for the world to judge you. I don’t care if they use my cash on food, booze, drugs, or cigarettes. They have a need and I can help them, even if it’s only a buck. Rader is usually in the car with me when I give money. I always feel bad when I don’t have any cash and he always tells me that he has some cash if I want to go home and bring it back.
  2. Sometimes a song will make my heart hurt.
  3. I didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life until I was 30 years old. If you have a kid who is wandering from path to path, don’t give up! (I have a kid who is going to do the same thing I did. I hate that for him, but I totally understand him.)
  4. I hate panty lines and think there is no excuse for having them.
  5. It only takes me 30-40 minutes to get ready in the morning. Shower, shave, hair, makeup, clothes.
  6. I don’t wear a lot of makeup. I wear mineral foundation, mascara, lip gloss or tinted Chapstick. Occasionally I’ll wear eyeliner. Evening makeup is a light eye shadow and lipstick.
  7. I wear flip-flops almost year around.
  8. I don’t think that teaching abstinence and birth control/safe sex are mutually exclusive and I don’t understand how parents in this day and age can justify NOT talking to their kids about safe sex. As a matter of fact, I talk about sex so much to my kids that I’m pretty sure they’ll never have sex because of it. *SCORE*
  9. I don’t understand why people start off with “No offense but…” People need to own their opinions. And they need to learn how to express them properly without the “No offense” padding.
  10. If I had a choice between sports and a girly thing like a baby shower or wedding shower, sports will always win. (I will sacrifice that for my BFFs. Mainly because they wouldn’t torture me with stupid games.)
  11. I used to drink 6-10 Diet Cokes or Coke Zeros a day. Now I have maybe 2or 3 a month (except when on deadline). And those usually have bourbon in them. Or vanilla vodka. Heh.
  12. I am planning to buy a pair of red cowboy boots this year.
  13. I’m really excited about getting my tattoo soon. I can’t wait to show you guys!